Every Part of Me

Bismillah,
Just this morning, Aku dengar lagu 'Every Part of Me' by Miley Cyrus. This song remind me of myself, how I have changed.

"Maybe I will never be who I was before,
Maybe I dont even know her anymore.
Maybe who I am today, ain't so far from yesterday,
Can I find a way to be, Every part of me.."

Me, I always question who am I? I always try to search for myself ever since I was in Primary school. Maybe I find it interesting to find out who am I. and I guess, you will change from who you are in grade school when you are in high school- or when you leave school like me who just gradute from high school. When I look back, I realize I have changed. Then I realize, I dont change much. Well, actually I did.

When I'm in primary school life, I was a quiet person. I dont talk much, I dont even have that many friends. I thought I have changed when time passes by. But when I'm in my form 5 life, tak pernah sorang-sorang. yelah, duduk kat asrama lah kan..its impossible to be alone. But on that moment when I'm alone, I felt as if I didnt change much. I feel like when I'm still in primary 4, sitting and waiting for people to come to me, they never did. But when I'm in form 5, whenever I get those rare moment of being alone, after 10 minutes, people will always come, or I will go to someone. See, I haven't change much but at the same time, I was so far from who I am before.

Until today, I still want to be the young girl who kept everything to herself but I also want to be the hyperactive form5 who tell everyone what she feels. I used to hate myself, but now I realize its fun to be me. Its fun to have a split personality even if people dont really understand me. Sometimes, I dont even understand myself. but as long as there's people who understand you, you are happy, right? I think its important for people to understand others other than judge them they way you see them. There's a story behind every person, and you cant actually questions why they are like that. If they are jahil, who can pray for them. You can always pray for people to change rather than judge them.

All the best in being yourself, all the best in being the best muslim :))